Low as a writer

The lowest point I’ve been as a writer.

Well, its not one time per say. It happens often but it is the same thing. I get caught up in my thoughts and wonder why I write. Or if I’m meant to be a writer. Those two statements are what brings me to my lowest within writing. I talked about it in a previous and more detailed post: Maybe Not

If I were to list another low point I think it would be when I trashed the first book I wrote. At first I felt defeated and didn’t write for months. I couldn’t look at the word document without feeling disappointment in myself. I remember the countless times I opened the story and tried to fix it. Yet every time I never achieved what I hoped. It felt like I let my dream slip away, I failed my characters and their story. It seemed like I wouldn’t write a thing again for a while. 

Thankfully that isn’t true 🙂 . It took some time to recover from it and slowly I began to write little by little. Though to some people, trashing words doesn’t seem like it carries a lot of weight. It does. It isn’t just words but emotions, endless hours of thinking and creating. It’s an entire world being brought to life and to watch it burn to ash – its miserable.

Writing does so much and brings a lot of good with it. Which is why I’ll continue to write even when my mind plays its tricks on me or I have to let go of a story. There is a lot of power in the pen and if I’m able to use that, to share great stories and do wonderful things; then I shall. After I go through the motions I, realize that I’m simply feeling writing in another form. A different emotion but – if I can channel it sometimes and write through it; it can bring out different sides to the stories I’m creating.

 

What about you guys? What have been or are your lowest points in writing? How do you handle and deal with those events?

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2 thoughts on “Low as a writer

  1. Sharon Bonin-Pratt says:

    Ky, I’m so sorry to read this. Everyone finds themselves in the dumps sometimes, but we’re down there by ourselves. Lonely, weary, paralyzed. Friends can’t pull us out. We have to do it for ourselves. Try something new – a poem or instructions for a skill you’ve mastered. Write a letter longhand. Get in the car and drive someplace you’ve never been, or take a long walk. Contact the senior center and ask if you can volunteer – maybe teach a class on writing. Read the very first story you wrote that you were proud of, out loud. The distance from your troubled work and new perspective about it will give you insight and strategies for making it work – or for starting over with new ideas. In the meantime, do not lay blame. Every movement is a step forward. Keep going. Best wishes to you.

    • Ky Grabowski says:

      Ah, I love your ideas. There awesome 🙂 Thank you for sharing this great message. I’ll be sure to keep this in mind when I get stuck in the future. I wish you all the best as well, you’re truly a sweetheart. xo

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